Poems | Vulnerability

This poem is a good reminder for me of God's faithfulness.

I penned this poem in January 2011 while living in Sydney. Believing it would be a short season in Sydney and longing to come home to New Zealand and our precious ones... Every day I prayed that it would be soon. [I probably sounded like the persistent widow as I nagged my Heavenly Father daily] My emotions a pendulum - one moment being overwhelmed with the uncertainty and fear of whether I would ever come home to having my faith flying the next moment as Abba reassured me it would be SOON SOON SOON! Feeling misunderstood, sadly sometimes I pretended that I was fine to please people. We don't always understand God's timing but it was later in that same year that God restored our family and we spent our first Christmas together in 9 years... I have discovered that being vulnerable is not being weak, there is such strength in vulnerability and rereading this poem all these years later I can still 'see' the agonizing ache that I carried around in my heart - this heart of mine that is now full and overflowing - filled with gratitude to God for His great love, grace and mercy to me and our family. He is ALWAYS faithful.